I just want to quickly apologise for not posting for a few days, but I have had a fairly stressful and overwhelming few days and just needed some time to chill. But I'm back with a BANG! and a new schedule of Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday which I should hopefully be able to keep up with.
Anyway, today I am writing a little letter to my 13 year old self, it is quite personal, but I am hoping it can help some of you all too.
Dear 13 Year Old Emily,
You are young and mostly enjoying life, but you are far too sensitive. Don't let other people's actions get to you, in the words of Tyler Oakley (who you will soon discover as well as many other people in the world of YouTube) "You do you!" and to be quite honest, you are very good at that, so ignore the b***hes; they're just jealous.
You will run across many paths in life that many seem difficult, but it's okay, because that is part of life. In fact, you achieve more then you ever thought you could. Life may seem busy, and even now you feel like you are sprinting a marathon, but, you are living the life you need to live in order to achieve your dreams.
You need to remember that no matter how sad you feel, and how crap your day has been, the good part outweighs that bad. But also remember that it is okay to make mistakes; we learn from them.
Although it is hard to believe, the bullying stops. People grow up, and you grow a stronger head. Just stop victimising yourself, and a little side note, retaliating gets you nowhere. Just don't take things so seriously, that is probably that best piece of advice I could give you.
As for growing up, it is tough. As your hormones change, you become a worrier, but don't close yourself in on life. You will be much happier embracing the opportunities you are given... You will have some wobbles, but everyone does, hiding away just makes it worse.
Your friends will have their wobbles too, sometimes they will be aimed at you. But, if you are there for them, and support them, you will sometimes get the favour returned, even if you have to ask for it.
Now for what you discover... makeup, fashion and the internet... embrace the opportunities they give you, and you will discover a new hobby. As well as a growing passion for baking, scouts and hockey (oh! and about hockey... don't give up!!).
As with anything in life, you have to work hard for what you want. You will also learn that exams really aren't your thing, but it's okay, because you get through them, and you are pretty awesome at coursework.
Just remember one quote, "Don't let small minds convince you that your dreams are too big!".
Emily (aged 16 and 10 months) xx
I hope you enjoyed this little, semi-cryptic letter to myself and I will see you Saturday.